Its 10.40pm now.. Just came back from bandar.. Having dinner at Seri Kemanyan just now with my second uncle.. He treated us.. Well, not us actually, is my grandpa lolzz..
Its the first time i feel so terrible.. Its the longest night i have ever had.. How can it be?? I dunno what happened to me.. How much i hope time can be back to 2 weeks ago.. How much i hope we dun know each other.. How much i hope we are strangers now.. Then everything will not gonna be like dis.. I dun wan.. I really dun wan and i really din mean to hurt u.. Truly, honestly n seriously.. I could imagine how u feel now.. as terrible as Im.. What you said are right.. You are thinking for long-term and im thinking for short-term only..
As if i accept you now, its is unfair for you.. U thought i just said out those words easily without thinking.. Im not!! I have thought it repeatedly n struggling.. When I told you what im thinking, im sure you will feel that im selfish or what sort ever.. But do you know how i feel.. The painfulness is not getting lesser n lesser. However, it becomes more and more deeper. What should I do to make you feel better.. I really hope I can..
You can just keep silence but I cant.. I have someone to talk to but you dont have.. So, im sure you might be so down right now.. Actually, I was planning to call u but Im afraid.. Instead, I ask my friend to call you.. I really worried about you baby. Nevermind, just let it be... I would do whatever you want me to.. Take care!!
ChieH
Its the first time i feel so terrible.. Its the longest night i have ever had.. How can it be?? I dunno what happened to me.. How much i hope time can be back to 2 weeks ago.. How much i hope we dun know each other.. How much i hope we are strangers now.. Then everything will not gonna be like dis.. I dun wan.. I really dun wan and i really din mean to hurt u.. Truly, honestly n seriously.. I could imagine how u feel now.. as terrible as Im.. What you said are right.. You are thinking for long-term and im thinking for short-term only..
As if i accept you now, its is unfair for you.. U thought i just said out those words easily without thinking.. Im not!! I have thought it repeatedly n struggling.. When I told you what im thinking, im sure you will feel that im selfish or what sort ever.. But do you know how i feel.. The painfulness is not getting lesser n lesser. However, it becomes more and more deeper. What should I do to make you feel better.. I really hope I can..
You can just keep silence but I cant.. I have someone to talk to but you dont have.. So, im sure you might be so down right now.. Actually, I was planning to call u but Im afraid.. Instead, I ask my friend to call you.. I really worried about you baby. Nevermind, just let it be... I would do whatever you want me to.. Take care!!
ChieH
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